This is SO my jam!

Last night was ladies night. Complete with sushi and cocktails. Best. Night. Ever. Seriously I don't know how we haven't been doing this every weekend since the dawn of time. Good food friends and drinks? Um yes please.

(Bish please, we run this town)

I'm pretty sure these was lots of the running man involved because what night is complete without the runnning man? Oh yeah and maybe some jazz hands.

(love love love these ladies)

Hope you all are having just as fabulous of a weekend. A & I are going to see Inception tonight, I've heard nothing but awesome things and was really inspired to see it when Mayra over at Life is Bananas posted screen shots...umm hotties. So until then have a great weekend I'm peacing out.

(Des Moines nightlife. I LOVE it)

Haircut! EDIT!!!!!!!

Okay in just an hour I will be going with the bestie for a hair cut. Last time I tried Hayden P. and it didn't turn out so good. So I've decided to go for it get my dream haircut a la my idol the freaking fabulous Victoria Beckham.

(image via google)

(please please please let my hair look like this)

I am nervous because I want to do Posh proud and I'm totally up for the reasponsabilities that lie ahead with looking like Becks. On the list: lose 15lbs and look like a model, have 3 boys and still be ridiculously skinny, and own many many pairs of Loubies. A bit overwhelming but I can do it! Unless of course it ends up more disasterous than the Hayden P. cut and I go all Britney in the salon and shave my head. I'll update when I return...brace yourself.

EDIT

Okay so here it is in the form of some really terrible photos because my camera is the mega suxxxx.

Obviously I've got some work to do to live up to the high standards Posh has set. Hopefully this weekend someone with a cool camera takes some better pics.

I swear I'm not a crazy emo girl....

Seriously I'm not. But this post may have a slight hint of emo-ness in the sense that I'm going to write about a song that may or may not have helped me get out of my depressed state. So right after I moved into the new apt. I was driving and feeling all anxious and sad still and Jimmy Eat World's "The Middle" came on the radio. I was obsessed with this song and band when I was a junior in HS...which was 2001. So not having heard it in a very long time I cranked it up and of course rocked out. As I was shamelessly singing along having a dance party in my car at a red light, I realized that this song was my new theme song. Yes I know I'm 16 again and this song so describes my life and no one understands me IT'S MY ROOM MOM! But seriously, as cliched as it sounds, the lyrics were basically what everyone all along has been telling me but for whatever reason on that day hearing the men of Jimmy Eat World sing it to me on the radio finally made it sink in. I am doing better on my own, I will live right now and just be myself and no it doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else. And most importantly, it just takes some time.

Okay so wow, emo-ness I know. Here's the weird part; I cannot tell you how many times I have heard that song since. It's like I couldn't remember the last time I heard that song on the radio and now it's everywhere. The radio gods are watching out for me making sure I don't forget the important message from J.E.W. The other odd part? About two days after this musical intervention and revelation I met A. Pretty sure J.E.W. is watching out for me and personally reminding me that everything , everything will be alright :) Thanks guys!

(image via google)

This is how we do it...

It's friday night and I feel alright and the party.....is not really on the west side but more the central side. HA! Sooooo happy it's friday friends. This work week has been crazy and I had to say goodbye to a cool ass co-worker that is moving on to new adventures. :( But! I'm on a mission tonight to get my bedroom in order. Right now it looks something like this

(this may or may not be an exaggeration image via google)

You know me and my quest for simplicity and minimalism, so it doesn't take much clutter to make me view my room as such. Anyway hopefully after much work my room will end up looking like this.

(Sweet simple perfection image via google)

Okay that probably won't happen but I'm pretty sure if I drink enough wine while I'm re arranging I can be convinced it does. :) Any big weekend plans? Any bedroom design inspirations you want to share with me feel free. I'm always looking for new things.

Happy Friday Loves!

Excuse me just a minute...

I've been avoiding doing a post completely about A & I for fear of driving everyone away with my giddy little girl antics but you know what? It's my blog and I'll do what I want. So everyone, meet A.

(Please disregard my serious need for a haircut)

I know it's only been a short while but the state of being that I'm in is a complete 180 from a month ago. A month ago I was convinced that I'd never find anyone ever again, that would make me feel special, important and pretty and all that other good stuff. I was so wrong. Okay and I know I said I was done with musicians after my last little mix up but I am telling myself that since A is a jazz musician and not the typical rock and roller I go for, it's a-okay. (No pun intended, haha) I'm having a hard time figuring out what to write, I'm not sure how to put it in words, but it just feels right. Sounds crazy I know, told you crazy girl antics but whatever. He's a nice, smart, caring talented guy and I'm a lucky girl. Plus the Art Center was our first date, and I flipping love the Art Center. So, he wins extra super rainbow glitter points for that. Now all I have to do is take him to Noodle Zoo because he's never been and no one who lives in the DSM should be deprived of Noodle Zoo.

Alright well if you made it all the way through, you're a good friend. And if you're in Des Moines, go to Noodle Zoo. Like now.

Summer, Shakespeare and Twitter

This summer is off to a great start. Oh and I'm doing A a favor and trying to twitter so feel free to follow me on twitter @marisa84. We'll see how long it lasts. Anyway, went to Shakespeare on the Lawn at Salisbury Gardens last night and had a blast. I honestly never thought that at 25.5 years of age I'd be all giddy over a new bf, but here I am and I'm not complaining. We went out with the bestie and her bf and all went well so wooo!!!!!!!!!!! It's on! Hahaha but really I'm so happy and excited and looking forward to....everything I guess. I spent the last 5 months worrying about how I'm going to get through the day and how I'm going to get through the rest of the year even. Sometimes it's crazy to think how taking a chance on one person can make you forget all the things that made you think you weren't good enough. I guess what I've learned through all this is :

1: Life always goes on. Even if it's not how you thought it would.

2: (To bust out my nerdy side) "You can commit no mistakes and still lose, that is not a weakness, it is life. " -Jean-Luc Picard

3: I'm pretty freaking awesome.

Happy Monday Everyone!

Sorry For the Absence

The old hard drive bit the dust. But now I have a new and improved one so woo hoo! So a lot has gone down since I last left you and I promise I've stopped being a Debbie downer....because I met a boy :) If you're my FB friend then you know his name but if you're not I don't want you stalking my life so we'll call him A. I'm going to keep this post short as the Midwest has turned into Hell and I want to go sit in my AC living room. Just know that A is very nice, cool, fun and we have a great time together. So more stories to come, first date all that jazz....haha jazz. I'll explain that as well later. So no more depressing blog it's on to fun times! Stay cool my fellow Midwesterners and especially to my bestie who's AC broke today :(

A House But Not A Home

I'm all unpacked finally and everything is in it's place....for the most part. I'd like to say I'm all settled into my new home. But this isn't home, it's just the place that I live. Home is a mile away. Where I spent three years making a house a home. With someone who no longer wants to have a home with me. I can't go back to that house. Knowing someone else has been there. There is still some stuff there that I want, but the thought of stepping foot in that house again has me in tears. That was our home we built together, and just like that I'm out. I didn't think it would be possible to still be sad, to still get depressed but it is. I want to move on so badly but I don't know how. I just wish I could find an instruction manual on how to go on with life. My life still revolves around D; What he's doing, who he's with, where he is. I just want to stop thinking about him. I want to focus on myself, what I'm doing where I'm going. But it's a lot easier said than done. How do you just move on from someone who was the biggest part of your life for 5 years? For 5 years my life revolved around D, and all I wanted to do was to make him happy for the rest of his life. That was my mission in life the thing that I wanted to strive to do everyday for the rest of my life. Now that thats over...I don't know what to do. I have no sense of direction no purpose. God someday I'm going to stop being this pathetic, and I hope that day is soon. Because I honestly am getting sick of myself.

The First Night

Well friends as I write this I am sitting in my room at my new apartment. The first night wasn't to bad. As I said the bestie came over, a little wine and SATC always makes things better :) Anyway sleeping the first night in the apartment wasn't so bad, until 4:30 am....when the cats decided to freak out. The roomie has a cat and we haven't introduced the cats yet. I want mine to just get used to the place before throwing another cat into the mix. Anyway, for whatever reason they just started freaking out then I couldn't get back to sleep as it was dawn and the birds were chirping and my bed is up against my windows. Ah well.

So now for my good story I promised. Last week was a particularly rough week for me. D has a new girlfriend and I had to find that out via facebook, and then was asked if I could be moved out by friday (yesterday). Needless to say I've never been more sad/angry/depressed/scared/dejected in my whole life. That weekend D's sister and husband invited me up to hang out with them in the old college town and I was pretty excited to just get out of the house and go out partying. Things were going well had dinner and hit up the bars. Then talk of D and I's break up came up and I went to being a Debbie Downer. Thinking the night was over for me, we made one quick stop back at a bar where E (D's sister) knows the owner. There I met this guy who is in a Beatle's cover band and tours the country doing that and is also a songwriter out of Washington State. We hit it off and E and her husband asked if he'd like to go back to their place with us for some Mario Kart wii and a night cap. He tags along, tells us how unglamourous being a songwriter actually is and seems like an all around cool guy. (And hot) Cutting to the chase. Play some Mario, E and her husband are happy I found a cool guy and I offer to take him back to his hotel. Probably don't need to go into detail there. I'm sure you can figure out what happened. Anyway, the next morning we realized he had left his vest at E's house so I took it home and of course got on Facebook to see if I could find this guy, because I'm a creepy stalker like that. Anyway search his name and location find his profile. Friend request with a message saying that I have his vest and can send it back. My mistake was not perusing his profile first. After I friend requested him I looked over his profile......and discovered he was married. MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And accodrding to facebook married for 4 years! I stared at my laptop in disbelief. I had hooked up with a married guy. Now please keep in mind he had no wedding ring on, and I even asked about girlfriends and he said it was too hard being on the road all the time. So two lessons learned, facebooking one night stands is not a good thing. Sometimes ignorance is bliss. Two: I think I'm done with musicians for a while. Never seems to end well for me. Well this is probably the first of many great stories as I chronical my single life. So I guess look forward to more adventures!

Hello!

Hey from the new digs! Sorry it's been a crazy stressful very very trying two weeks. But I am in my own apartment now with an awseome new roomie so hopefully things will be falling into place soon. The bestie came over and helped me break in the new place with a little wine and SATC. So until I'm settled in just know I'm okay and have a great story for you once I return.

besos,

Marisa